She Buried Her Little Boy Today

She buried her little boy today,

As I try and figure out what to say…that could possibly take the empty feeling away,

I realize that nothing can do that. Ever.

I try and plug my ears,

while the world complains about insignificant silly little troubles, but I really want to scream “shut up!”

And she buried her little boy today.

 

Why do people say “there are no words” when someone dies?

There are words, so many words.

I’ve never lost a child,

But what I think it must feel like is drowning, just barely keeping your head above the water,

Not being able to breathe,

A pain in your heart that never subsides.

 

I have thought of her and wondered how I would deal with such loss

While I tuck in my own precious son each night.

She’s living my worst nightmare,

Losing a part of yourself,

so young, so loved,

An angel that is now soaring above.

 

I can walk away from this when it becomes too painful to finish, turn my mind off to these heartbreaking thoughts,

but she can’t.

Each day she must wake up knowing her little boy is not here anymore.

He is here… though not physically to touch and hold.

He is here, all around us.

 

Why It Doesn’t Matter That Your Husband Is An Officer And Mine Isn’t, Revisited

This happens so rarely, but when it does, it quickly becomes very awkward and unwelcome. Not the first time I’ve written about it either, and I’m sure it won’t be the last…so just don’t be this spouse. Please, I’m begging.

Why It Doesn’t Matter That Your Husband Is An Officer And Mine Isn’t

1. I am not the one in the military (and neither are you). Sarah to Jareth in the Labyrinth, “You have no power over me.” 

   

2. Take the word ‘military’ out of the equation and let’s see how far your false sense of entitlement gets you (you know who you are).
3. Oh, because I really just don’t care. Our spouses took different paths within the military. That is all.
4. We are all wives first that each have the potential to do great things no matter what our husbands rank. 

   

5. You come second to the military just like I do.
6. This stigma gets redundant, it’s 2016 people.
7. We’re all in this together.
8. Still not caring…
9. Some officers wives have been my best friends, still are.
10. I treat others how I want to be treated. In fact, I’m probably nicer to them than they are to me. No amount of “officer spouse only” exclusive grooming classes can teach this.
11. If you think it matters- than you are a part of the problem.

For the record, I have my own coffee group where everyone is invited.